Happy 1

I don't know why I do it to myself. I get all crazy about cakes and parties and pictures and... it's really about my baby turning one and all that has changed in the last year. So I could feel the craziness coming on while I was feeding Meadow I thought, "we better hurry this up so I can go make some frosting." Then I thought how sad it was that I was trying to rush holding my baby which was the reason for the frosting making anyway! So we sat there rocking and nursing for a long time and I held her head the way I had to when she was in the NICU (when I wasn't allowed to pick her up - torture). I talked to her and told her all the things I loved about her. I could tell she understood it all. And I thought of all the sweetness that she is and... I ended up crying. But I am so glad I took the time. After all that the cake turned out great, with a little help from designer Dad and we had a great little party.